Wednesday, October 21, 2009
I SUCKED AT EVERYTHING!! I AM UGLY!! I AM STUPID!! I AM ANNOYING!!
From this point of time , i had every intention to quit school. i really couldn't focus or get anything to my head. i guess is i don't have the drive to study like i did last year. really sucks manxz. last time , i would make it a point to come school early and study and i would be the first to arrive at school but now? i would arrive half to 1 hour later. last time , i studied like mad during the 2nd term and i remembered that i would spent time listening to teacher even though i couldn't really concentrate. i really hate myself like right now and really think of dropping dead. sighs ~~ i even didn't turned up to class just cus i am plain lazy. but i do have interview though. ... i really get mad when i have no desires to even study , when my mum's expectation is high. she really thoght that i might be a proud good girl who gets in to poly. i guess my dreams are really clashing out at this point of time if i continue to be a shag person. oh lord~~ help me. help me to become a changed person , to be like the last time me who worked hard although the 1st term i played and got bad results. ... but , it's still no point right? sighs , just tahan bah i guess in this life. i have one chance right now and i really do not wanna flunk again and become a useless person. okay , from tml onwards , i am sooo gonna study. i will attain GPA 3.4 or higher. i am not gonna disappoint my mum. my mum is my motto and my drive. i am gonna bring home books to study. jiayou michelle ong hui jin! :DDDD
this is my vention and i am so sry if my post is such a bore to yous. these few days , i have been my oh my precious sister , hahas , straight after school , went home and bathed and met her. life is always the same but i am still happy though!! :D haha!! alright , i would end my post with a final picture.
if it's ugly , i am so sry cus i was born ugly. (:
12:59 AM!
